When I was a child I had a best friend who lived across the road from me. When her mother died unexpectedly it was like losing a member of my own family. I think I am still affected by the memory of that loss.
Actually, my worst nightmare is losing my best friend, as I imagine most people's are.
It's wrenching enough to lose the man who is your lover, your companion, your best friend, the father of your children, without losing yourself as well.
Best to live lightly, unthinkingly.
Friend, you're HOPELESSLY hooked!
You've got to get to the stage in life where going for it is more important than winning or losing.